The ball is rolling

The ball is rolling and it becomes more and more real each day. Lots of preliminaries have already begun like doctor appointments, working on drafts of the contract, I have told my immediate family, days have been set for a counseling session, and for the guys to come and meet my mom. It's wonderful to know that we are doing everything in our power to set ourselves up to create the best possible circumstances for this new baby.

All the nitty-gritty aside... it becomes more and more real to me each day. Little things, like noticing that I've started calling them 'The Boys' when talking to my family. I already feel a heart tug to their family and think about how they are doing. I find myself very proud of 'the boys' and what they have made of their lives. Today specifically, I was thinking about how exciting it is to be such a significant part of their lives by getting to protect and carry a baby they have always wanted. 

This really is quite an opportunity for me. I never have wanted to have children of my own. Don't get me wrong, I love people and even little ones but I have never had a strong urge to be a mother. I think in some ways this uniquely equips me to be able to carry their baby. One of the strongest emotions in me lately has been the joy of knowing how excited and happy they are as they look to their future. 

The more we prepare and get through some of these vital initial steps, the more confident that I become. It's clear to me, their hearts are the size of the moon, and their willingness to do everything necessary to protect and nurture not only this child, but me also has touched my heart.